A human habit
Human beings tend to doubt and I am having my share of this trait. When I don’t get what I want, I have the tendency to question myself. “Am I not as good as I thought I am? How come I am in this situation? Why am I not as good as xxxxx? What did I do wrong? I should have blah blah blah”. After the questioning, I would find myself brooding over it until finally it has gotten a toll on me and I began to feel drained mentally then physically. Soon I will end up in my bed fast asleep.
Sometimes, I have this urge to tell somebody what I feel but I can’t really articulate well and I don’t want to be judged because people tend to do that. So I keep quiet and hide the secret storm brewing within me. Sometimes, the more I think, the sadder it becomes. When I lie in bed, i dream of it. Self pity. Vivid images play in my head and it becomes so tangible that balls of droplets roll off my cheeks occasionally. Sometimes I am not so optimistic when things happen to me.
