This is a really depressing post
Why am I so unhappy…is it so difficult and utterly wrong to ask for a small thing? Is it so frustrating for you when I tell you that that my domain is expiring and I need to pay the fees while you are just simply watching a youtube video? Is it a taboo that I share with you my thoughts? If sharing with you about what I have in mind will cause me to be accused of being unfilial then I will forever shut my mouth. If asking for only a small thing will cause you to blow your temper, I will never ask for anything again. If I can’t share with you about my thoughts nor ask you for things, how much are you as a parent?
If leaving this house when I grow up, as you said, makes you happy, I will. Life is so depressing when you are constantly being denied especially in your own family. Sometimes, I feel like I really don’t have anything even though I’m properly dressed, have a home and some money in my purse. Even as I type this entry, my eyes are overflowing with tears when I think about what happened. I cried not because I’m scared or guilty. I cried because I’m angry and heartbroken.
The years of cold war finally broke only to come biting at me again today. Now you are going to look at me disappointed and wondering about this God of mine. I’ve let down 3 people today, including God.
